The name I loved
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This is what I typed in my phone last night when I listened to Onew’s solo, ‘The name I loved’ for the first time in many months. Suddenly I rediscovered my reason for loving SHINee so dearly.
It evoked a million feelings and thoughts within me. Suddenly it got too hard to breathe, and I don’t quite know how to feel.
Perhaps it was sadness. I heard the pain behind your voice and imagined the sad look on your face. Once again I felt the sorrow and all I wanted to do was to go to your side to hug you, even though I know it is not possible. I can only imagine.
Make me think you’re real. So far you still feel like a dream, so distant and faraway. I can only see you in my dreams – and I see only you. Sometimes thinking of you makes me smile. Mostly it makes my heart ache and cry for you, and I don’t even know why.
Embrace me. Tell me it’s alright. Give me the will to move on because I can no longer find it anymore. It’s always been you who kept me going. Now do it again. Make me want to survive.
I’m suffering from Onew ache.
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It’s so amazing what songs can do to me.
