NOT A FAILURE

Been feeling so down for so long, I forgot the feeling of true happiness.

Haven’t done homework yet :D Me is pro. HAHA. So late already, and I haven’t even touched my homework ^^ Not planning to sleep much tonight anyway, so I have the whole night to do them.
Getting back more results tomorrow. I don’t want. I don’t want disappointment. I don’t want to feel angry, sad, and jealous.
Neither do I want to feel happy I suppose. I want to be immune to everything, that’d be the best (: I’d be a robot with no feelings. And I won’t be able to cry.

Hmm. Starting to get worried. What if I can’t finish my homework O_O
LOL tomorrow wake up earlier go school chiong? Haaa. Or just don’t sleep at all. Then sleep during recess. There’s combined practise tomorrow, fuck my life. Stupid. I don’t want. Don’t feel like practising at all!!!!
My erhu don’t know how long never touch already. Haha. Ever since one week after I bought it -.-
Wasted my parents’ money. Sorry.

I PROMISE NOT TO PROCASTINATE :)
But too late! Exams are over. So even if I start now what’s the point? Save it till the holidays. Hmm.

I think I’m being rebellious. Haha. One day I’d pon school. LOL.
See? Even Express kids can also be like this. Study till siao liao, so need to relax de okay? Still given homework sia, stupid ttm. Zzz.
Never do, only get scolded. (:

Aiya I think everyone would be disappointed in me. I so stupid liao, then still don’t want to work hard to score as much as I can. Just leave myself to rot there.
Failure.

I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure. I’m a failure.

NO, I’M NOT.
And I will prove it.

I’ve not gone crazy (yet).
This is just a phase *crosses fingers* I hope so. It’d be over soon. As the saying goes, “There’s always light at the end of the tunnel”! So Amanda, you’re at the middle of the tunnel. You’re gonna reach the end soon, so endure it for a while! :D
Everything will be fine, Amanda promises you. (: And everything WILL be alright ‘cos Amanda says so.

It must be.

If my life was made into a book to study for Literature in a exam syallabus
Everyone would fail it because nobody would be able to tell what I’m writing about
But isn’t that the fun in writing?
Hidden meanings so nobody knows

Not caring.

I don’t feel like myself.

Geog exam next Monday! A little more over 2 days. 49 hours. I’m going to sit for my paper in 49 hours, what am I doing here?
Is 49 hours enough to cover so many chapters?
Because I totally haven’t started yet.
Plus I have to do my homework too, shit. Why did I waste so much time on this stupid INTERNET?! INTERNET, MIGHTY AMANDA HATES YOU.

Do I look like I am very hardworking?
I suppose it’s my facade, something that’s very hard to keep up with.
I hardly talk about my grades with my friends because I like to seem clever. How stupid.
Idk but after reading certain posts of people’s about studies I got kinda stressed up. See, my mood gets influenced very easily.

What’s more friendships aren’t going so well.
With this certain someone I mean.
Idk if she can’t communicate with me or what. Or she’s afraid of talking to me. Or she just don’t care.
Whatever the reason is, Im just going to say I’m not going to take the initiative this once.
I’m too tired. She wants the friendship, she’d come and get it. -.- Never have I in my life got up to do all those stuff for a friend. No way am I doing it again. Don’t blame me, I’ve been doing it continuously last year.
And she doesnt seem to miss me, so I dont care la.
Damn bitch right me? HAHA I DONT CARE EH EH EH EH EH~ (I don’t care – 2NE1) :P

So my current main priority: STUDIES And nothing will stop me!!!!!! NOT EVEN THE STUPID INTERNET.
Priority after exams: SHINee! Online shopping (Internet banking TT.TT/meet ups. SUCKAGE! Cannot use credit card, darn. I WANT A CLRIDE.N SHIRT AND A BANC WATCH! Also a Colonize hoodie but I think they stopped taking orders after this Sunday D: Cannot luh, needa study for Geog~ ^^). Hello Baby! Nyahahahaha. K-pop~~~
Still have to worry about results, major suckage please, hopefully I can pass all with flying colours okay?

May God/whatever SHINee believes in bless SHINee.
May Buddha bless me :)

SHINee hwaiting! ^^

HAII!
Haven’t updated for a while. :D
Anyway, got my tickets for Singapore Entertainment Awards 2010 earlier on while at Jurong Point :) Wheeheee! SHINee HWAITING~! Kekeke. ^w^
Also, today is the day that 19 year olds in Korea graduate from High School! :D Of course, Minho and KEY! Woohoooo congratulations to Minho and Key ^^ And also Seohyun, SNSD’s maknae.
*I feel so proud of Key ^^* I wonder if I’d feel the same when Taemin graduates. Aww, didn’t get to see Onew or Jonghyun’s graduation photos D:
I can’t believe Key got away with his fringe and dyed hair. Gah. I suppose Minho’s hair is acceptable?!
But anyhoo it’s the last chance to see them in their uniform *sighs* So nice lor, their uniforms.

Ahh anyway. I’ve been wanting to post this up somewhere for a longgg time ^^

Korea’s Top 50 Best Voices – Male (Top 25)

01. Kim Junsu (TVXQ)
02. Kim Jae Joong (TVXQ)
03. Se7en
04. Kim Ryeowook (Super Junior)
05. Andy Lee
06. Kim Hyun Joong (SS501)
07. Jung Ji Hoon/Rain
08. Lee Min Woo
09. Park Yoo Chun （TVXQ)
10. Kang Ta
11. Cho Kyu Hyun (Super Junior)
12. Lee Hong Ki (F.T. Island)
13. Jun Jin
14. Shim Changmin (TVXQ)
15. Kim Jong Kook
16. Kim Ye Sung (Super Junior)
17. Shin Hye Sung
18. Son Ho Young
19. Kang Daesung (Big Bang)
20. Oh Jung Hyuk
21. Lee Seung Gi
22. Kim Jong Hyun (SHINee)
23. Tae Yang (Big Bang)
24. Ryan (PARAN)
25. Lee Dong Hae (Super Junior)

Actually… I’m surprised that Onew didn’t make it D: Not that surprised for Key, Minho and Taemin. Minho is the rapper, and Taemin’s the dancer. Key’s the mixture of all three ^^ – he sings, dances and raps~!
Onew has a superb voice and I’m not being biased. All you need to do is to listen to his solo songs such as ‘The name I loved’ and the duet he sang with SNSD’s Sica, ‘One year later’ (which succeeded in making me cry! TT.TT).
However, I’m glad that Jonghyun made it to the list! :D I’m so happy that he was acknowledged ^^ Yes his voice is so fabulous, he can reach 3 octaves!!! :O

And of course, KYUHYUN, YESUNG, RYEOWOOK AND DONGHAE! :D Quite surprised to know Donghae was on the list rofl :x Since he’s one of the best dancers in SuJu and doesn’t have much singing parts and all that. Keke.
Expected Kyuhyun, Yesung and Ryeowook to clinch it :P I mean HELLO?! , KRY (Kyuhyun Ryeowook Yesung – subgroup of SuJu) wasn’t made for nothing. ^^ Yah. So you could see why I’m surprised that Donghae got it. Not in a bad way of course, I AM happy for Fishy :D

Oh yes and Big Bang. :O Taeyang and Daesung! I was expecting Daesung to get it ^^ But why no GD. :O
Eliane must be so happy that F.T Island’s Lee Hong Ki got on the list too :P

Congrats to DBSK :D So pro sia. LOL Charmaine must be so happy~

Look at THIS :O

Although not as skilled in comparison with Xiah JunSu, Shinee’s JongHyun received positive feedback. They stated, “He is a singer whose next step we are anticipating more than his current stand,” and “JongHyun’s vocal is one of the reasons why Shinee succeeded.”

Yes yes yes totally agreed! JONGHYUN FTW~ ^^
Just ONE of the reasons. ONE. :P

Okie lol bye.
I think I’d make up a list of my own soon. Of course it’d be biased. LOL! :P

Yunhanam, SHINee

Hi :D
Am in a rush now so making it fast!
Okay so tomorrow’s the first day of school after 2 months. Scary or what. :S
Anyway I’m watching Yunhanam now ^^ Heehee SHINee ftw! :D I realised that Minho is cute in his own quiet, introverted way. But he was real sweet to the noona :)
And that Taemin, he’s proud of his dance in ‘Noona neomu yeppeo (Replay)’ and kept redancing it for different noonas? LOL xD Hahah.
Key is as outgoing as ever, of course ^^ I really felt sad and scared for him when he had to do the bungee jumping and everything ):
Okay I gotta go watch Episode 9 of Yunhanam now. :D
Byebye~ There’s a new noona in there ^^

Shopshopshop!! <3

Hello :D
Went shopping today with family ^^
Hahah. Anyway, sis got some nice shoes from Bata!!! In hot pink and black, the design was very nice. :) I want one pair too <: Hahah. What colour and pattern should I buy though?! Hee. There's one in white and yellow (Nah. They won't fit with my clothes :P), … red (Red doesn't suit me), black (I have so much stuff in black already LOL xD) Okie, maybe it's me who is too pickyyyy :X
Also went to the newly opened Cotton On (FINALLY!!! Been waiting for half a week since I saw it open :DDD) Sis and I both bought one pair of shorts there each :D Hahah. Mine was in Black, sis’ in Steel Grey. Quite nice la, went well with my dark green EDC top from Espirit bought last week :) I only need a good pair of shoes to perfect the ensemble :) Not my gold flats or my OP sandy yellow and brown sandals again D: Hope I can get nice ones from Bata. Sis has this thing against shoe shops that sells other stuff other than shoes (socks are alright though), like Everlast and Converse. Hahah LOL so funny. :D And maybe a pair of darkly tinted sunglasses, black headband and probably a black bangle up the arm (planning to buy from Cotton On or this shop that I saw :X) and I am ready to go!!! Woohoo :D Dad says it’s for Chinese New Year. ^^ Hahah. So must wear until nicer lo~

Anyway it’s now 12AM :O Exactly. Wow. :) Heehee LOL so random eh.
Okay la byeeee. I need the toilet too anyway :X Hahahs. :)

Trip to Sentosa

Went Sentosa yesterday with MPA (Ruilin, Wanlin, Huixin and Weina). :D Really fun.
Loved the luge and skyride. Tried the bicycle and set foot on a scooter for the first time in many years :) I miss the feeling of going fast with my hair whipping around me. A lot. So I enjoyed today. All these activities made me really happy and all. :D
I received a few cuts from trying on the scooter though. Thanks Huixin and Wanlin for those band aids. I think I’m going to get some for myself soon too. They’re really cute!
Met at 9AM > MRTed to Vivo > Took the first Skytrain(?!) of the day to Sentosa > Rented bikes/scooters > Went back for lunch at Harbourfront Centre > Pet Safari @ Level 3 > Arcade > Sentosa’s skyride > Luge > Rented bikes/scooters again > Vivo > Homed.

Yep, very fulfilling and fruitful for me. A lot of ‘first’s. :D
Spent a lot of money too. OH! I liked having money in my wallet. ._.

Okay, bye, gotta have my dinner and do some homework aftermath.

Revenge of the Nerds

Gaga whoo lala~

“It was in my blood that I was born to lead, and not to follow. I have always yearned for a chance to prove myself. Yet, under pressurizing circumstances I chose to follow and not to lead instead.“

Hullo :D
The pictures posted up there, aren’t they nice? Hahah. xD LOL.
Watched New Moon with my sis today :D Premiere showing orz~
Bought shorts for sis today at This Fashion too :3 S$28. I like it too :D Hahah.
Okay, it’s really late nao o.o So me gonna sleep already, tata ^^
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P.S. Ooooh, I saw some really fab clothes today at Fox and Espirit today rofl. :
LET OUR FAMILY WIN THE LOTTERY! FIRST PRIZE! S$500 000! PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE
I really need it.
For some unfanthomable reasons, I need it.
For some reason beyond everyone’s thinking, I need it.
YES I really do need it. Not want it. It’s a need.
…

Anyway, I saw these hoodies and cardigans at Fox that got me real hyped up! URGH.
Then some EDC bottoms and Espirit shirts and OMG, THAT BLACK JACKET! :O It was on freaking sale at S$69.90!!! :O OHOKAY, I WANT IT ROFL.
The real price was doubled that ‘on sale’ price. Seriously.
I hope my dad lets me buy it!!! :O I haven’t been let out to shop like crazy for so long, I already forgot how it felt like to spend bucks and bucks without caring how it might burn my parents’ pockets out.
Still. Neither did I spend so much of my money on STUPID MCDONALD’S and other foods like Subway and KFC and Pizza Hut and MORE than I did this year before. NEVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE. Urgh.
I want to go Fox, Espirit, Stage!!!
I so want to go Stage at Far East Plaza and buy that Spongebob shirt that costs S$43!!!

Anyhooo, like I said I saw some shirts at Espirit.
They’re like so fabbbbb I nearly bought one :S LOL.
But I was a few cash short!! T^T And sis didn’t bring much dosh out so I had to leave the shop without. Buying. Anything!!!

LOL okay now that I got so excited about clothes I’d never get to sleep at this rate.
GAH. Huh. I’m so sick and tired of re-wearing my clothes over and over again and looking at the same old clothes in my wardrobe and literally sticking my nose to the window of those shops AND going to This Fashion (though I buy almost nothing there BLAH).

EEK I WANT THE CLOTHES.
AND THOSE AWESOME BANGLES I SAW AT THIS SHOP.
AND NICENICENICE LANYARDS FROM 77TH STREET.
AND THOSE NOTEBOOKS FROM ARTBOX. (LOL)
AND THOSE BERETS FROM THAT SHOP.

Well. Yes. I’ve obviously been deprieved from spam shopping for so long I’m nearly demented.

Actually, forget I said all this. I don’t really need those stuff (except for the lottery win).
They’re really wants. Still. I really… I don’t know, get attracted by them and keep thinking about them till I buy them and find that they’re not really perfect for me.
Nevermind.
Christmas and CNY’s coming anyway. There’ll be loads of discounts and offers. … Right?

Bye then. Lemme get over this till we win the lottery :D Then I’d go wild.
Now I’d just have to wait.

I despise cheapskate stuff.
:/

Class outing photos

Here are the photos for the class outing. :)


YAY! Had a fabulous time, except I was sunburnt very badly. D:

Okeh, gotta go sleep <: now, so tata. :D Hahah.

海派甜心

Hi guys, long time no post. :D
Hahah, I love 海派甜心 ttm~ ^^ KEHKEHZ.
And also, Haruhi Suzumiya! Hahah.

Commit Suicide

I’ve been talking about suicide to some of my friends nowdays, like Jeffery, Andrea and Peixuan.
I am thinking if I should create a list of ways to commit suicide xD Maybe I should just name one and carry on with my list in my private blog :)
Okie, here I come!
LIST OF WAYS TO COMMITTING SUICIDE A.K.A DIE
1. Jump off a building – However, you might not die from it. This may cause you to be a immobile vegetable/in a coma for the rest of your life. Furthermore, you would be badly… disfigured. So, what I best recommend is that you bring a heavy, ceramic plate with you when you jump off the building. Place it near your face. This is because when you jump off, the force of gravity would most definitely drag your face and plate down first. So, your face and neck would be smashed headfirst to the cement. Also, the plate would break. The pieces would be sharp enough to cut into your skin and if you are lucky enough, the sharp pieces would cut into your neck and hopefully to your most important arteries besides the ones in your heart. This way, you would obviously die! WOOHOO.

There. I’ve just gave out a wonderful suggestion to die.
Thank you.
I shall create more ideas to die and put them on my private blog! Wheee :)
Okie, byebye. :)

POOT~ :D LOL PiguFamily! <3